the ONE that makes me HAPPY.

sooo. how do we start? hmmmm. as today, 14.May.2O1O, I've been dating my man for 3 months and 5 days. he's name is James. he turned 2o on the 18th of January. he's 4 years older than me. just like my Mom and Dad, my Grandma and Grandpa.i met him last year.. July 5, 2oo9. nakilala ko xa thanks to Jake. nung day na mameet ko xa, they we're at Raychelle's 18th birthday party in Bassano. well, at first we we're friends. we even call each other "Bro/Sis". haha. xD we didn't talk that much really. so one day, i think it was the 18th of July when he and his friends, Jake, RJ and Mac paid me a visit here in Mestre. so i saw the 4 of them for the first time. Jake really caught my attention 'cause i already knew him among the others. and yeah, i admit, i liked him 'cause he was my ideal guy.. he has that chingky eyes. HAHA. so.. when they texted me that they already arrived at the train station i was kinda shocked kase i didn't know anything! in fact, nasa Auchan ako with my parents. they were askin me if i could get out and go for a walk with them. but since late na noon, i said no pero makukulit ang mga mokong kaya napa-oo ako. haha. so at past 9 pm, baba na ako to meet them. i had to make up stories. i came up with the excuse of payin a quick greet to my classmate. haha. and yessss! i didn't get busted. wohoo. XD nung nakita ko sila, pareparehas kaming nahihiya sa isa't isa. when i saw Jake, he immediately turned me off. baket? he was an inch or so shorter than me! c'mon. it was sooo disappointing! Rj. ok naman. maichura pero di ko type. neither Mac. and hey, si Bro! i was like "hmmm. he's tall, slim, i like his shape and he's.. he's.. chinitoooo!" haha. xD pero sabe ko wag na lang kase friends kame, panget magtaluhan kame and besides, he still has his girl that time. pero sa totoo lang. naramdaman ko na yung bigat ng tingen nya saken that time. kaya nasabe ko sa sarile ko "i think this guy has a crush on me." so yun.. as time pass we continued as friends. he often called me and we texted more after that. when the VIP, originally formed by Jake, James, RJ and Mac, decided to pay another visit here on the 21st of November, andun kame sa court sa likod ng Pam. then nung pauwe na nagpunta na kami ng Pam. i didn't know na andun pala sila Mama at Anjel kaya pinakilala ko sila sa Mama ko unexpectedly. James was the only one to come forward to shake my Mom's hand at sabihin ang pangalan nya. haha. so kaya yun. after noon lage ko na xa kausap as in araw-araw na tumatawag sakin si Ogag. haha. lgae kame magkausap. close kame super. lage nagkukulitan. every time na malungkot ako dahil sa ex kong si Jarrell, he was the only person who had this magic to make me happy. nung birthday ni Edlene, nun ko naconfirm na me gusto talaga sakin si James. nung hinatid nya ako sa bahay, nung pauwe na biniro ko xa. sabe ko "ooh. yung kiss ko? :D" nagulat ako kase he kissed me sa gilid ng lips ko! i almost felt it on my lips. just as he turned his back i gave a smile. me halong kilig. HAHAHA. i don't remember well kung kelan exactly pero nung katext ko xa sabe nya "kung di lang kita Sis matagal na talaga sana kitang niligawan ee." xempre ako, super mega todo kilig naman. hahaha. :D

ANOTHER STRESSFUL DAY..

damn. another f*ckin day.. ]: i feel soooo sad. hai. why do parents are so like THAT? i mean, woah! no one ever said na magaasawa ako only 'cause I'm dating someone. it's so sad. really.. db dapat ang parents are the first one to talk to you when you're feelin down? pero bakit ang parents ko, they don't have that friendly approach? :[ they always think that I'm shittin 'round. hindi ba pwede magkaron ng bf ang isang 16 year old girl? Am I not suppose to fall in love? bakit para sa parents ko, di ko pa alam or di totoo yung pagmamahal ko for a guy at this age? WHY? so they mean that i DON'T KNOW how to love? so what do you call that thing kids have for their parents? and what about that thing friends feel for each other? ain't that love? bakit di maintindihan ng parents ko na SILA ang dahilan kung bakit ako nagkakaganito??! akala kasi nila lagi sila ang tama. they think they know EVERYTHING! well.. yeah! they know everything that makes my world sooo impossible. tang inang buhay tooo. kelan pa matatapos to? T_T